Continuous Circle
I haven’t written in days and honestly, I feel like I am lost with myself. Daunting and dwelling upon everything that had haunted me for years, I contemplated what to do so that my anxiety gets stop.
All this thinking made me close to a fact, fact that I have learned in every newspaper, in every book but always remained ignored. I am glad that I didn’t miss it this time, I saw that with the most attentive eye of mine reading it aloud.
“5/June/2021”,.. “6/June/2021”… and so on. Did you realise? How come not.. ahh you also suffer from ignoring stuff that resides in front of you.
This is continuity, continuity of life, continuity that drives you and me, everyone around. And this is what I learnt - you, me, everyone is in this circle which is continuous. It doesn’t stop, you can’t stop it too. It happens by its own and ends by it’s own then why to worry? why to sit thinking what’s coming next?
We’ll have to live in this continuity not thinking terrible about this circle. More precisely, the wisely we live and enjoy our present the more we make our past and future secure. Look we live happy in present, we make good memories that can reside in past and we can lean to them anytime we want without stressing ourselves with regrets. And if we’ll have a soothing present, we’ll be more patient with our future too. We can make our journey in present beautiful with respites that would show their outcomes in future but for that we’ll have to pour in a large bucket of patience.
Learning all this was not easy, and living with this is not easy too. There are many relapses where you see yourself lost in vicious circles of fear of loosing, getting lost to an end where you see nothing. You may relapse, you may feel like this dignified version of “living a happy present” is a myth. I feel this, look feelings are okay. They make you alive so, if you feel sad or gloomy, you feel like you can’t do something that’s okay. It’s completely okay, what’s not okay is loosing your self to this sad feeling. Don’t let yourself drown, make a comeback and remember “it’s never too late to get back to your stuff as long as you feel alive”. This is patience that you wait so that you can again rise but never let yourself lose you, you are important as much that you don’t have an idea.
See everyone is not same, not everyone is good with managing stress and anxiety. Everyone has different shades, shades of life and sometimes the part which is tough to you may seem different to others. So, don’t judge, don’t make assumptions. Let others breathe with their anxieties, don’t push them to recover. Don’t come up with words like “ You are just being overdramatic”, “It’s nothing to panic”.. No, don’t go like this. Your words are cruel instead be patient, and see them growing.
Instead be kind, choose words that you would like to listen if were stuck in any of this situation.
